Rubbernecking the world in decline

Following the news these days, especially after a truly tragic week, is like witnessing a fatal car accident. You are horrified to see it happening but you are helpless to look away.

Watching Meet the Press this morning, I felt a fluttering in my chest that was more than too much coffee. It was an adrenal fight-or-flight response. Should I stop reading the newspapers and watching the news in order to preserve my mental health? Or should I get more involved in political activism and defending the common good?

When I started this blog in 2005, my dream was to sail around the world. Now that seems hopelessly naïve. There are too many countries along the way that would be seriously dangerous to visit. Much of the world is in turmoil, and it will only get worse as the population continues to grow and the effects of climate change become more prevalent.

What to do? Scale back the dream, first of all. Try to lessen my personal impact and contribute to causes that promote positive change. But understand that my efforts are, to use an expression I just heard, like a fart on a garbage ship—not that significant. As I recently read, individual efforts will not slow climate change. Only legislative action, in the form of stringent emission restrictions and alternative energy promotion, will accomplish anything. And that action will need to be worldwide.

Fat chance. The countries of the world are embroiled in their people’s everyday struggles—trying to secure a decent life for their families, or are enriching the few over the needs of the many. The big picture, what is happening to the world and what the future will bring, is a distant concern.

I am helpless to look away.

John Kretschmer at Coconut Grove Sailing Club

During the whirlwind tour to promote his new book "Sailing to the Edge of Time", John Kretschmer spent an evening at the Coconut Grove Sailing Club in Miami on Saturday, November 17. His presentation was open to the public and very well attended. Some of the stories John recounted from his book were already familiar from past experiences and previous books, but it was entertaining to sit with an enthusiastic audience and listen to them again. Every copy of the book that John and his wife Tadji brought with them was sold and signed, including one bought by me for my father, who enjoyed John's previous book, "Sailing a Serious Ocean".

Before the event, John and Tadji met me at the clubhouse for a launch ride out to the mooring field to see Whispering Jesse, my wife Nan's and my 1980 Valiant 40 sailboat. John had advised me on purchasing the boat back in 2010 during one of his professional sailing passages that Nan and I crewed on, a multi-day trip from Bocas del Toro, Panama to Isla Mujeres, Mexico, with stops in Providencia, Roatan, and Belize. We reviewed the detailed boat survey that was emailed to me while we were in Roatan and decided it was worth a trip to Baltimore to see the boat, then named Little Walk. After the passage, John met me in Baltimore for a sea trial with the boat's owner and his broker. There were some issues, mostly of the deferred maintenance type, but none that would preclude buying the boat if the price was right. The owner and I eventually reached an agreement and Little Walk became Whispering Jesse.

During the purchase process, John had recommended his sister and brother-in-law's marina and boatyard in Solomons, Maryland as the place to go to get the boat refitted, so that became the first stop after my friend Kevin Harrison and I sailed the boat away from Baltimore. The boat was in the boatyard for over a year's worth of work, during which time John was occasionally on site to teach one of his popular sailing workshops. I met him there during one of my frequent visits and we checked together on progress with the refit.

That was back in 2011 and John had not seen Whispering Jesse since then, so it was a pleasure to show him how well the boat had turned out. John, Tadji and I wandered around the deck and up to the bow, where John commented about how much more effective a manual windlass, like the installed Simpson-Lawrence one, could be over an electric one. I told them about my experience with Hurricane Irma and how the three-anchor strategy and arriving late to the hurricane hole had probably saved the boat, when so many others had been lost. We went down below and I opened a bottle of red wine. John commented about how much interior space there was for a forty-foot boat. Tadji seemed suitably impressed by the layout and classic features, so different from modern production sailboats.

I wished that there had been time to take a quick sail, to get John's impressions of the boat's handling and whether new sails were in order, but that will need to wait for another visit.

UFO over Artesia, New Mexico

I am in Artesia, New Mexico this week for work. Last night, I was at a co-worker's house looking at the planets through his ten-inch reflector telescope when we spotted what appeared to be a bright satellite moving steadily from west to east across the sky. My co-worker ran inside for binoculars so we could check to see if the object was maybe the International Space Station. By the time he returned, the object had moved below the moon and was passing above Mars. As he raised the binoculars, the object disappeared. It hadn't moved out of viewing range; it had simply winked out.

This experience reminded me of early morning walks with my dog Charlie when we lived in Aspen and the winter sun was late to rise. I would sometimes see lights in the pre-dawn sky that I knew were not planets or bright stars. As I watched, they would occasionally wink out, leaving only an after-image in their wake.

I never had an explanation for this phenomenon until a recent exchange with a person who is avid about UFOs. He told me that the disappearing behavior is not for cloaking or concealment but rather a side-effect of the crafts' propulsion systems. The beings behind the crafts are not trying to hide, though they are definitely keeping a very low profile. This may be because their presence here, I was told, is not just a visitation; it is an occupation.

Whispering Jesse under sail

Last month, to celebrate turning sixty, I sailed with my friend, Mike Young, from Miami to Marathon and back, anchoring overnight along the way. On our third day out, we were passed by a couple on a motor yacht and the woman stepped out on deck to take our picture. Shortly after that, she hailed us on the radio and asked for my email address. The photo she sent is the only one I have of Whispering Jesse under sail. Thank you, Pat!

Scout: A Tribute

The slideshow of our golden retriever Scout's life that I started after he died in December 2015 is finished now and published on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MSMwbqWeTJI. It presents his entire brief life in 157 photos, over seven minutes, and is set to the song "Desire Lines" by Deerhunter, from their 2010 album Halcyon Digest.

Completing this project, which was interrupted by not having access to the files during our temporary move to New Mexico, put me back in touch with what a special dog Scout was. He weathered several transitions with Nan and me, from Grand Junction, Colorado to Miami, Florida and then to Savannah, Georgia, with stays in Bentonville, Arkansas along the way, but he always maintained his sunny disposition. Even when we took him on board our sailboat late in his life and it was clear he was not comfortable, he trusted us and wanted only to be with us, no matter what.

We loved Scout with all our hearts and he loved us in return. He was the best companion a person could ever wish for.

The Day After Hurricane Irma

Finn sailboat crushed by floating dock section under Coconut
Grove Sailing Club clubhouse; Geoff Sutcliffe cleaning
up displaced boat racks (Click for full-size views)

Following the commotion of the night before, Sunday night after Hurricane Irma had passed was eerily quiet. Erik and I were up early on Monday, drinking coffee and discussing plans. Neither of us knew how our boats had weathered the storm but we were both anxious to find out. Whispering Jesse would be easier to check on, so we grabbed the binoculars, jumped into Erik's car, and, dodging fallen trees along US 1, drove over the Rickenbacker Causeway to a parking lot next to Marine Stadium. We saw several boats washed up on shore on our way there and it was obvious that there were now significantly fewer boats anchored out where Brian and I had anchored Whispering Jesse on Thursday afternoon. I looked out to where I thought the boat should be and she wasn't there. My heart collapsed in my chest. But I scanned more to the east and there she was, looking very much as we had left her. I focused the binoculars and saw that the lines of the secondary anchors were badly frayed and that the anchor snubber was no longer in place, though the chain on the primary anchor appeared to be holding well. The storm surge must have been tremendous, I thought, despite the shallow water and relative protection of the mangrove-covered land to windward.

There was no way for us to get out to the boat at that moment, so Erik and I headed back to his house to park the car and walk down to the Coconut Grove Sailing Club, assuming that the area around the club would still be underwater. The internet was working again and we had received an email message from Vice Commodore Geoff Sutcliffe with a schedule for the day, starting with the gate being unlocked at 8:00. As we passed the Sonesta hotel, I spotted Bruce from the sailing club sipping coffee out front. We stopped to talk with him and he told us through tears that his ketch, Algun Dia, which was secured at Dinner Key Marina, had sunk in her slip. He and his partner Susie had been liveaboards but were now homeless. A friend who owned a unit at the Sonesta had put them up there. We offered our sincere condolences and said we would meet up with him later at the club. We were early getting there, so we walked around Peacock Park to get a look at two sailboats that were washed up on shore against each other and the park pier, which was now just a pile of splinters.

Sailboat with anchor pinned to sea wall in Coconut Grove
Sailing Club yard, with displaced brand-new turf

When Juan arrived and let us in through the gate, we couldn't believe the damage. The club's floating piers were in the parking lot, along with the ice machines and huge piles of debris. Most of the club's smaller boats had been stored safely in the clubhouse's upstairs conference room, but bigger boats left in the yard had been destroyed. The most astounding thing was a good-sized sailboat washed up in the yard, with its anchor tightly pinned to the sea wall.

Geoff arrived shortly after us and announced that the first launch over to the Coral Gables Waterway, where Erik's boat was moored, would depart at 11:00. A launch to Marine Stadium would depart at 1:00. This gave us a few hours to help clean up the mess, but I was preoccupied with thoughts of Whispering Jesse. I was torn between getting her back to the club's mooring field and leaving her where she was for now, in case the other disturbances out in the Caribbean developed into future hurricanes that could threaten South Florida.

Becky in the launch next to Geoff's boat Moon Glow
at the Coral Gables Waterway

Erik and I joined a group on the launch for the 11:00 run to the Coral Gables Waterway to begin retrieving the boats tied up there. Geoff drove us there but needed someone to drive the launch back, so I volunteered. The devastation along the Waterway was unbelievable. Every boat that had been left at a pier was destroyed or sunk. Previously beautiful gardens and landscaping were completely demolished. We passed Brian's boat, Lionesse, and I took a quick photo to text to him with word that his boat was fine. Ms. Mary Lou was covered with mangrove detritus but otherwise in good shape. Erik said he would be able to get her out of the mangroves and back to the club on his own without difficulty. Geoff let off the remaining people at their boats and then arrived at his own boat, Moon Glow, where he jumped into the water and waded into the mangroves to untie his lines, leaving fellow club member Becky and me to return the launch.

Yachts sunk and tossed at Dinner Key Marina

The 1:00 launch run to Marine Stadium was crowded. By this time, I was leaning toward leaving Whispering Jesse there but I still wanted some time to check her out. I asked to be let off first and then to be picked up again on the way back. Approaching the boat, the frayed secondary anchor lines were shocking, as they appeared to be holding on by mere threads, but the strangest thing was that the top of the foredeck's dorade box had been sheared off and was lying upside down on the deck. The storm surge had been strong enough to clear the five feet between the bow and normal water level and then pound the foredeck with significant force. Opening the companionway to look inside, there was a surprising amount of disarray in the cabin. Items that had not been secured were now on the floor, and heavy things like the generator and air conditioner, which are stored on the floor along the port settee, had shifted to starboard. Everything up in the V-berth had jostled around and there were traces of salt in the corners, making me think that the boat had been through one hell of a ride. I went back on deck to pull the secondary anchor lines in past their frayed sections and resecure them, and I was trying to figure out what to do about the open dorade vent, which would leak when it rained, when the launch returned and it was time to go back to the club.

Dev Ocean, an expensive motor yacht, sunk at her slip
in Dinner Key Marina; the cabin top is blown off!

Erik had Ms. Mary Lou safely back on her mooring and was working with me again to clear the debris at the club when it was time for a second launch trip to the Waterway. I volunteered to drive back again and went with the group led by former Commodore Paul van Puffelen. The first boat we stopped at was friend Alex Perez's Nordic Spirit. She looked fine except that an older Cape Dory pilot house-style sailboat was butted bow first into her port beam, with her anchor and chain flipped onto Nordic Spirit's deck. Alex was none too happy about that, swearing as he worked with his girlfriend to separate the boats. We discovered later that the Cape Dory had been anchored near Dinner Key Marina but had somehow found its way the few miles down shore and up the Waterway to rest against Alex's boat. This was one of several inexplicable situations that were left in the wake of the storm.

By the time the other sailors had been dropped at their boats and I was returning to the mooring field, it was late afternoon and Alex and his girlfriend were already securing his boat. They waved me down for a ride in to shore, but instead of heading in, we went for a ride around Dinner Key Marina to assess the damage. The photos in this post are just a small sample of the devastation we saw and include one of Bruce and Susie's boat sunk in her slip.

Bruce and Susie's ketch Algun Dia sunk bow down
at her slip in Dinner Key Marina 

Erik had gone home to see Karen, who was finally able to leave work after almost four days, so I walked back to their place alone from the club. I offered to buy them dinner at Flanigan's, which appeared to be the only open restaurant within walking distance, having their "Hurricane Response" generators running full-out in the parking lot, but the wait was too long and we were too tired. Back home, Erik whipped up a pasta dish and we called it an early night.

During the day Monday, I had received a voicemail from American Airlines telling me that my Tuesday morning flight had been cancelled and would be rescheduled after the airport reopened later that day. This would give me extra time to move Whispering Jesse back to the mooring field if that was the right call. Talking with other sailors throughout the day, many expressed concern about theft if I were to leave the boat at Marine Stadium. Juan told me that nine club boats were missing and unaccounted for. It was unknown whether they had been blown away, sunk, or stolen. After talking it over with Erik, we agreed that the smartest plan would be to get out early on Tuesday morning and move Whispering Jesse back to safety.

Expensive fishing boats piled up and sunk at Grove Harbour
Marina; boats in racks were spared

We arrived at the club early but were told that the launches would not be available for a run to Marine Stadium until late morning or early afternoon, so Erik proposed motoring Ms. Mary Lou over there instead. A half-hour later, we were pulling up to Whispering Jesse and rafting alongside. It took some serious effort to extract the port-side secondary anchor from the deep mud and get it back aboard, including improvising a way to pull up chain using the beefy jib sheet winch. To get over to the anchor, we had eased out the starboard-side secondary anchor line, including the frayed section. When we went back to it, the few threads still left intact came apart in my hands and I watched the line sink into the muddy water, gone for good. I rationalized that a lost anchor was a small price to pay when so many others had lost everything.

The primary anchor chain came up grudgingly on the windlass and was a muddy mess, but there would be time to deal with that later. I fired up the engine, Erik jumped back aboard Ms. Mary Lou, and we motored separately back to the mooring field. Safely back on my mooring ball, I zip-tied a plastic bag over the open dorade vent up on the foredeck and straightened up the mess of lines and muddy secondary anchor in the cockpit, then caught a ride back to shore with Geoff, who was passing in the launch.

Erik drove me out to the airport in plenty of time to catch my flight home. We stood at the curb to say good-bye, shaking hands and smiling broadly at our crazy shared adventure and the tremendous good fortune that our boats had survived their first hurricane.

Whispering Jesse and Hurricane Irma

Brian cooling it after helping set anchors in Marine Stadium
(Click photos for full-size views)

(I apologize for the delay in posting this account. The events depicted took place September 7-10, 2017.)

When I received the mandatory evacuation order from the Coconut Grove Sailing Club in the days leading up to Hurricane Irma making landfall in Florida, I knew I would need to travel to Miami and move Whispering Jesse to a safer place. I flew there on the Thursday before the hurricane struck on Sunday and was met by our friend Brian McGrath. He picked me up at the airport in the early afternoon and drove us to the club, where we quickly fired up the boat's engine and motored across Biscayne Bay to Marine Stadium on Virginia Key, north of Key Biscayne. The stadium is an abandoned motor boat racing basin that now serves as Miami's best hurricane hole. It is protected on all but the northwest side, the shallow water keeps the wave action to a minimum, and the muddy bottom offers good holding. The other recommended hurricane hole is the Coral Gables Waterway, a mangrove enshrouded estuary where Brian and his co-owner had moved their boat, Lionesse, a couple days before.

Marine Stadium was less crowded with boats than expected considering our late arrival, and we found a good anchoring spot away from other boats, though a little exposed, about halfway down the basin, across from the abandoned concrete bleachers. We spent the afternoon hours setting anchors using the strategy outlined by former CGSC Commodore Bill Beavers during his annual hurricane preparedness seminars. The idea is to set three anchors 120 degrees apart from each other with about equal scope. I was pleased with my foresight in having replaced the short, rusty anchor chain attached to Whispering Jesse's primary anchor, a 40-pound CQR, with 100 feet of chain and new nylon rode just this past spring. The boat included a second anchor, a 26-pound Danforth, when we purchased her, and I had added a second similar one after Bill's seminar three summers ago.

Miami skyline at dusk from Marine Stadium

We turned the boat into the northeasterly wind and dropped the primary anchor off its windlass, letting out all 100 feet of chain and about 50 feet of rode. Then, using neighboring boats as markers, we maneuvered the boat as far off the wind to port as we could and dropped the first secondary anchor off the stern. We did the same with the remaining anchor on the starboard side. We then led the secondary anchor lines up to the bow, adjusted their slack, and cleated them off separately. Finally, we took back the 50 feet of rode on the primary, readjusted the secondary lines for sufficient slack, and securely snubbed the primary anchor's chain. With all three anchors secured at the bow, the boat could spin freely if it needed to, though the possible tangle would be difficult to unravel after the storm.

In addition to setting the anchors, Brian and I needed to reduce windage, but we were sweaty and tired, and it was starting to get dark, so we opted to wait until the next morning. We spent the evening eating sandwiches Brian had picked up and discussing the current political situation, about which we have opposite but well-reasoned opinions. Then it was off to restless sleep in the stifling cabin.

Whispering Jesse is a cutter rig, with two furling head sails. They are a serious pain to remove, so I left them in place, tightly furled and with the sheet lines wrapped in spirals from their clews down to the deck, where we secured the extra to the lifeline stanchions. The main sail we also left in place, secured inside its heavy nylon Doyle Cradle Cover. We took down the canvas bimini and dodger, secured their frames, removed the Forespar davit we use to raise and lower the outboard engine, removed the covers from the engine itself, and replaced the dorade cowls with plates. It wasn't as much as we could have done, but I hoped it would be enough.

Whispering Jesse secured with 3 anchors in Marine Stadium

Juan from the sailing club picked us up around noon in a launch and took us back to the club. The mooring field there was eerily empty. There were still a few boats remaining and Juan explained that the owners were unable to move them, because of distance or health issues, or because they no longer cared. Juan said the club's policy is to "86" those boats from the mooring field and bill the owners for their boats' removal.

I had been in touch with other friends from the club, Erik and Karen, and they had offered to let me stay in their guest room during the storm. Brian drove me to their place, about a mile from the club, and we parted company, with my undying gratitude for his invaluable assistance and with best wishes for our boats making it through the storm.

Karen is an emergency services coordinator, so naturally she was called out for the entire duration of the storm. Erik is a college professor, and all the schools were closed in anticipation, so he would have been home alone if not for my company. Their boat, Ms. Mary Lou, was secured in the Coral Gables Waterway near Brian's. The night I arrived at their place, they hosted a hurricane party with other CGSC members. Erik and Karen are quite the cooks and served up an amazing meal of grilled meats and vegetables, homemade bread, and homemade pumpkin pie with homemade ice cream. The drink of choice was the aptly named Dark and Stormy, dark rum and ginger beer over ice.

Karen was gone before dawn the next morning, leaving Erik and me with the minor task of preparing their place for the coming storm by closing their hurricane shutters and securing loose furniture, outdoor plants, and ladders. Over many cups of coffee, there was plenty of time for talk about past sailing adventures, storm tactics, personal histories, and politics. Erik and I are more of a mind than Brian and I when it comes to political philosophy.

Saturday night was blustery but Sunday slowly degenerated into a serious tropical storm. Erik and I couldn't see much from behind the hurricane shutters but what we did see was concerning. There was not much rain but the winds were fierce, with gusts we estimated at 80 knots or more. Trees were beating against the house and losing branches. Shrubs were denuded. Cell and internet access had died the evening before and the electricity had gone out by morning, leaving only my battery-powered radio tuned to Miami public radio for storm updates. The announcers warned people to stay inside and not be "knuckleheads" by going out into the thick of the storm, so we sat in the little light afforded by battery-powered lanterns and worked up serious cases of cabin fever. By late afternoon, when we had convinced ourselves that the worst was over, we donned our rain jackets and ventured out to see what there was to see, a couple of reckless knuckleheads afterall.

What follows is a slideshow of what we saw:

Falling trees destroy a wall along Bird Avenue in Coconut Grove

The intersection of SW 27th Avenue and S. Bayshore Drive, looking toward Dinner Key Marina, is knee-deep in water

Looking southwest along S. Bayshore Drive toward Peacock Park and the Mutiny hotel

Kenneth M. Myers Bayside Park exercise equipment is underwater; Coconut Grove Sailing Club clubhouse is in the background

Howling winds, MT Celebration crew securing lines, empty CGSC mooring field, club house in distance

Debris in Dinner Key Marina parking lot; a man's body was found in debris piled near the Mutiny hotel

Destroyed sailboat in Dinner Key Marina

Grove Bay Grill/Scotty's awning framework with destroyed sailboats and massive piles of debris

Sinking catamaran and debris piled at Grove Key Marina; Erik and I were interviewed here by a USA Today reporter but as far as we know the story was not published 

One of many sailboats we saw tossed up on shore

Next: The day after the storm

Pinback at the Summit Music Hall in Denver

Nan and I drove to Denver over Labor Day weekend for a concert by one of our favorite bands, Pinback. We had seen them once before, at the Ogden Theatre in Denver back in November 2009, and had a wonderful time, so when we heard they were returning, it was an easy decision. Nan gave me the tickets as a birthday gift.

Summit Music Hall is located in the LoDo area of Denver, close to Coors Field, where the Colorado Rockies play. We had a quick dinner at nearby Kachina, a newer restaurant featuring southwestern cuisine, and then walked around the corner to see that there was already a line forming at the Summit's door more than twenty minutes before opening. We had hoped to find seats in the balcony but by the time we got up there, they were already taken. We did find standing room at the rail overlooking the stage and the view was not too bad.

While we waited for the opening act to take the stage, we chatted with Ian and Ross, two brothers from Jacksonville who were sitting next to us. They had been to the same concert the night before and were excited to see both bands again. Ross mentioned that Rob Crow from Pinback was personally manning the souvenir stand downstairs. I had suspected as much when I rushed past on my way up to the balcony and saw a familiar-looking redheaded guy, though he was much thinner than I remembered. I missed my chance to talk with Rob before the previous concert, when it turned out that he and his band mates were eating dinner at the same diner we were before their concert, but I wasn't sure it was him until he took the stage later.

When I stepped up to the souvenir stand, Rob was standing behind it wearing a black "Crew" t-shirt and two fans were looking at what was available, which was not much. There was an assortment of Pinback and side project CDs but no t-shirts or caps. When the other fans left, I looked up at Rob and said, "No coffee cups?" He just chuckled. I glanced back down at the CDs, then up at Rob and said, "Well... I have all the music already, so... I guess I'll just go and hear you play it live now." He smiled, I gave him a thumbs-up, he waved, and I walked back to the balcony stairs. It wasn't much of a conversation but I'm pretty sure he could appreciate how much I love his band's music.

Minus the Bear opened, and while I like their music, it all sounded the same to me after a few songs. I recognized a couple of the songs from the only album of theirs that I have, "Menos el Oso", and they closed with one of those, "Drilling".

Pinback's set was excellent. It was an hour and a half of songs I know by heart, including some they didn't play last time, such as "Boo" and my favorite, "Concrete Seconds". Last time, Pinback was a five-piece band, but this time it was only guitarist Rob, bassist extraordinaire Zach, and a drummer. I couldn't tell how they were doing it but there were keyboard fills and extra bass lines. The effect was seamless and every song was perfectly executed but extremely loud. Our heads were buzzing on the walk back to the hotel and into the next morning during the drive home.

People Who Died

(with a nod to The Jim Carroll Band)

I have reached an age--59 later this month--at which many of the people I have known in my life are now dead. Relatives, friends, associates, so many are gone and so many have met unnatural ends. At odd moments, I find myself mentally cataloging all the different ways they have died. Here, in no particular order, are the people who come to mind:

• Uncle Bud died at 47 of a heart attack during open-heart surgery.
• Aunt Mary Anne died of breast cancer 19 days later.
• A guy I worked with at the MSOE student newspaper died of AIDS in the early '80s.
• Henry drowned while whitewater kayaking on the Crystal River.
• Victor drowned at Lake Powell while swimming between boats.
• Ryan drowned trying to save his dog from drowning. The dog lived.
• Haley died in a water skiing accident at Ruedi Reservoir.
• David died in an avalanche while helicopter skiing in Canada.
• Atsushi died in a fall while climbing Mt. McKinley.
• Doug died when his helicopter crashed while setting utility poles near Glenwood Springs.
• John crashed his plane into Monterey Bay.
• Bob died when his plane crashed, along with a client and the client's dog.
• A guy from my guitar class died while paragliding when he couldn't stop a spin.
• Mary crashed her car into a bridge abutment in Milwaukee.
• Jeff was killed on his motorcycle in a collision with a truck near Glenwood Springs.
• Gary died of complications following a bicycling accident.
• Dan died of a heart attack while skiing at Snowmass.
• Howard died of a heart attack while mountain biking near Aspen.
• Greg died of a heart attack while water skiing at Ruedi Reservoir.
• Eric died of a heart attack at 42.
• Pete died of Lou Gehrig's disease at 47.
• Randy died of lymphoma at 49.
• Chris died of lymphoma at 66.
• Nancy was killed in her sleep by an intruder with a hammer.
• John, Joe, Chris, Larry and Mike all died from long-term cocaine abuse.
• Deborah died of an intentional cocaine overdose.
• Gene died of an accidental cocaine overdose.
• Dan died of an accidental heroin overdose.
• Bob died of a drug overdose before cancer could kill him.
• Sam died from internal bleeding after mixing an antidepressant with ibuprofen.
• Bruce drank himself to death.
• Jim killed himself after a messy divorce.
• Kevin killed himself after being bullied by his boss.
• Bil killed himself over money troubles.
• Scott killed himself when he couldn't fulfill his dream.
• Stewie jumped off a pedestrian bridge on his way home from work.
• Larry was killed as the result of a hit-and-run accident while driving home from work.

They are not forgotten.

Waiting for the Return

     Aturok stood at the western shore and gazed up at the night sky. The moon had not yet risen and the Pleiades shone brightly. He could clearly see each of the seven stars in the open cluster. It wasn't difficult for him to imagine his ancestors calling this star system home, though it was more than four hundred light years away.
     Aturok had been born on the planet where he now stood, the product of a coupling between a male ancestor and a female native. His mother had not survived his birth and so he was raised by the ancestors in the years before their departure. Bridging two worlds, two cultures, two life forms, Aturok was a being of both and neither.
     His creation had been no accident. The ancestors were ill-adapted to life on this planet and needed intermediaries to fulfill their purposes. Aturok was one of many they had created to serve them and then abandoned, with the promise of their eventual return. Now, many years later, Aturok still looked to the sky for some kind of sign.
     During his childhood, Aturok learned from the ancestors about their worlds and culture, with special emphasis on their technology, the technology he would use to control the native people and to mine the resources needed by the ancestors.
     The ancestors were believed to be gods by the native people. Aturok and the other hybrids were treated as the children of gods. The native people's creation myth foretold of a time when the gods would descend from the heavens, and the ancestors did nothing to dispel this belief. On the contrary, to ensure their cooperation, the ancestors applied their technology, which the native people considered pure magic, to build stone temples and monuments that reinforced native beliefs.
     When Aturok was of age, he took a native woman as his mate. As every hybrid was male, there was no other choice. But in common with the mule, a cross between a horse and a donkey, the hybrids were sterile and produced no offspring.
     Aturok's first mate was one of a succession of mates he had been paired with over the years. His ancestral genetic heritage gave him tremendous longevity, though not so long as the ancestors who had crossed the vast distances between stars.
     The natives who had been alive when the ancestors arrived were long dead, and the succeeding generations knew of them only through stories, temple ruins, and the persistent presence of the hybrids. Though Aturok and the other hybrids continued to exert control, there were grumblings from the native people and insubordinate questions. They wanted to know when the ancestors would return, and they believed the hybrids knew but would not tell them. If only it were so, thought Aturok, but the ancestors had taken their technology with them when they departed and there was no means for communication. Thus, he watched the night sky.
     Though doubts persisted among the native people, they still admired the hybrids for their knowledge and abilities. With no possible offspring, and with native people incapable of mastery, those advantages would ultimately die out. The native people, in deliberate attempts to prevent this eventuality, took to flattening the heads of their infants, believing that hybrid intelligence was contained within their unique head shapes.
     One of the infants thus affected grew to manhood as a leader of his people. He was confident, as were they, that he was the equal of the hybrids, and he sought to challenge them to prove it. What this leader lacked in hybrid-level intelligence he compensated for with guile and cunning. He would engage the hybrids in games and connivances, which the hybrids would purposely lose to preserve the peace. Instead of gloating over his small victories, the leader would seethe with anger over the knowledge that he was being manipulated. Finally, he called upon his people to rise up against the hybrids and force them to reveal the date of the ancestors' return.
     That event had taken place earlier in the day, as the sun was setting and the light was tinged with red. Now Aturok stood at the shore and awaited his fate. He turned at the sound of approaching footsteps and faced the leader holding a spear aimed at his heart. When will the ancestors return, the leader asked. Aturok gazed calmly at the leader and spoke the words he had come to know as truth: They will not return.
     With an anguished cry, the leader plunged the spear into Aturok's heart. Aturok did not cry out. He dropped to his knees and slid slowly to his side on the sand. With effort, he turned his head for a last look at the Pleiades and then closed his eyes and welcomed the starless darkness.

Aturok and the other murdered hybrids were buried among the stones of the temple ruins in graves befitting the children of gods. The native people abandoned their ancestral lands for new lands, where they could forget the past and resume living as they had before their creation myth had become their reality.